UGH!!!

I haven't posted in a while, but I've been feeling so blah lately. And yes I used blah as an adjective, get over it. So what shall I blog about? My annoying sister? Trying to fix my dad's car the other day when it broke at walmart? Softball? At the moment softball seems like the easiest thing to rant about, and ranting is all I will be doing.

Last year, I played every other game, then sat on the bench, but I was a sophomore, so I was just paying my dues. Then at the section tournament (playoffs), I did amazing and was named all-section. All-section means you are one of the best players in the section and about 20 girls get it (from 8 teams). The only other person on my team named all-section was Michelle. I also had the second highest balling average at 0.419 (only behind Michelle).

Flash forward to this year. I'm sitting on the bench. Again. I'm batting 7th, and according to my coaches, I do everything wrong. It makes me want to cry, and quit, but I want to play softball in college. Also, I don't want to give them the satisfaction of knowing that they, the coaches got to me. I just don't know what to do or how to change the situation.

I know I'm a good player, but to go to practice everyday and work my butt off just to sit and get yelled at. It's disheartening and I'm sick of it. I put up with it for two years, bidding my time, and dreaming of being a junior and finally getting the respect and playing time I deserve, but it's not happening. I don't think I'm being a baby, or being egotistical, or  pretending I'm better than I actually am. And I don't have to play every game, I just wish I knew what the coaches were thinking, if they are thinking at all.

Sorry for ranting at you, but now that that is out of my system, maybe you will get some more fun and interesting posts. Or not, but I will start posting more often.

Love a frustrated and disheartened

~Rachael